Writer's Block

Do I really want to be a writer?  Or is this something you can choose for yourself?  Is the compulsion for self expression something you are born to do?  Or can I toss the idea of being a writer into the trash with all the drafts of my book?

When my writing is really good, in my opinion, is when my heart is in it, when I throw myself completely and totally into the topic.  Ideas flow, actually rage like a flooded stream during an Alaskan breakup.

However, after I have spent my emotions into a project, I start doubting if I can take the criticism that is necessary to move the project to the next level.  I have always been stumped at the editing level.  I didn't even make a showing at NaNoEdMo last March.

Can I allow my precious words to be ripped apart and reassembled as if the maid has come to change the linens on my bed?

That is the question.